I finally see your true colours now that i've stopped wearing those rose tinted shades.

You disgust me.

Facebook photograph

i wanted to post this up on facebook, but decided against it. What for, when its meant to address just one person. Dont you all find cryptic fb status updates so pointless. (im guilty of it sometimes, but i try not to do that anymore). Like you want it to be a pointed remark directed at someone, yet still retain a certain level of ambiguity in case you need to save your ass. All that alluding and beating around the bush. Either tell the person directly (and privately), or don't say it at all.

For this case, no, its been said before so i don't have to say it again. And its definitely not facebook/public-worthy material. My blog's not exactly private either, but i need an outlet.

The song says it all. Someone on youtube kindly left the lyrics in a comment..

I saw a photograph of you today online

Then i saw through your smile, half a mile wide

and you had another girl hanging off your arm

But no, i dont feel jealous or weird

She's rich and smart and pretty

and you deserve her

push it off

turn it down now

Chorus

You are better off without me

and i know from the day, that i realized

being with you was giving up

everything that i've stood for now

You're the boy from the table that everyone would notice

except me

You took my expectations of what you'd be

And threw them all away

We were saying everything was alright

It's not

Bridge

But everyday reminded me of things you wouldn't see

All the best of you wasted on the very best of me

And i havent tried for so long

to make each other happy

Don't come back

Don't come back now

Decisions, decisions. :(

Been losing steam. There are days when i don't want to pick up the guitar at all. Exercises, building chops and all that shizz can be a chore. A slow, endless pilgrimage. There are moments of self doubt. Listening to guitar virtuosos leaves me awe-struck but also very depressed. Richie Kotzen came up with Fever Dream at 19 years old.

Those times are when you need to remind yourself why you love playing guitar. Forget what you should be doing, what you should be practicing, what other people think. Play what ignites that spark within. Play music that awakens your whole being and makes you feel alive. Music that you love.

Doesnt matter if i suck right now. As long as i'm always inspired.

And then you have bad practice days like today. sigh.

i guess there is no short cut.

1 hr 45 min of concentrated practice.

Refining the solo for friday's performance. Technique's still a tad sloppy. Fingers are callused and peeling. its 1:48 AM. But it feels so good.

i cant wait to woodshed after graduation. i know, i am such a geek. :)

Get the funk out

whoa. Awesome groove. Killer technique. I cant wait to figure this out once FYP's out of the way!

Get the funk out yo!

Final sem is flying by. Its been mostly lots of work. Sleepless nights. But there are some good moments. Like jam sessions at hall 8 every thursday. Listening to good music at grace's room. Sleepover at boon's last night. Oh, and today's jamming with the prof. Its somewhat amusing but also refreshing to see how enthused he was while he was playing with us. I guess that love for performing is still there even after retiring from his gigging days. i love how people from all walks of life can bond over the shared love of music.

Most groups are counting down to the 25th March. But for us, full steam ahead till 19th April. Ah well. This too shall pass. And God uses difficult times to mould our character. :)